My mom found a boyfriend. I was so happy for her, and her Aaron seemed like a good man. But there was one little issueโฆ I had NEVER met him before. Not even seen a photo! My mother’s happiness mattered most, so I stayed out of their private life.
Until ONE DAYโฆ we finally arranged to meet. I was excited and wanted everything to be perfect! My hands were trembling as I rang the doorbell.
“OH MY GOD, YOU’RE HERE!” my mom shouted, rushing to open the door. But the moment I saw her man, I frozeโฆ
โฆbecause standing in front of me was my former college professor. Professor Aaron Matthews. The man who gave me sleepless nights not because of grades or examsโbut because I had been completely, hopelessly infatuated with him during my junior year.
He had barely changed. Same intense green eyes, same salt-and-pepper beard, the same calm, deep voice that used to turn my insides to jelly. My mom hugged me tight, oblivious to the wave of panic tightening around my chest.
“Aaron, meet my daughter, Lily!” she beamed.
He extended his hand. “Lily,” he said, smiling gently. “Itโsโฆreally good to finally meet you.”
His voice faltered just slightly, and I saw the flicker of recognition in his eyes. He remembered me.
I shook his hand like a robot, heart pounding so hard I could hear it in my ears. “Hi. Yeah, nice to meet you too.”
Nice? Nice?
I was screaming internally. My mom led us into the cozy living room, chattering about lunch and the garden and how nervous sheโd been about today. I sat, numb, on the edge of the couch while she bustled into the kitchen to finish the food.
Aaron sat across from me. He leaned forward a bit, his eyes scanning mine.
โI didnโt know,โ he whispered. โWhen your mom showed me your photo last week, I recognized you, butโฆ I wasnโt sure how to say anything.โ
โYouโre dating my mom,โ I whispered back, eyes wide with disbelief.
He raised his hands slightly. โI know. Believe me, I was shocked too.โ
โI had a crush on you,โ I blurted. Then immediately regretted it.
His eyebrows rose slightly, then softened. โYou werenโt the only one with feelings, Lily.โ
Time stopped.
โWhat?โ I asked, blinking at him.
โI never acted on it,โ he said quickly. โI was your professor. It was completely inappropriate. But after you graduatedโฆ I thought about you. More than I should have.โ
I stared at him. My momโs voice rang out from the kitchen. โYou two okay out there?โ
โFine!โ we both answered, too quickly.
He sat back, running a hand through his hair. โWhen I met your momโฆ I didnโt know who she was. I met her at the bookstore. We started talking about poetry. She reminded me of someone.โ
I let out a shaky laugh. โMe.โ
He smiled. โYeah.โ
The awkward silence between us felt like it could swallow the house whole. I couldnโt stop staring at him. My momโs boyfriend. My former professor. The man who almost admitted he had feelings for me.
Lunch was a blur. My mom was glowing, thrilled that we were finally all together. She kept telling stories, laughing, passing plates. Aaron played his part flawlessly. But every time our eyes met across the table, something unspoken flickered between us.
After dessert, my mom insisted on showing me the flowers sheโd planted in the backyard. Aaron stayed behind to clear the dishes. As she knelt beside a hydrangea bush, I tried to focus on her joy. She was in love. She looked ten years younger.
โHeโs changed my life,โ she said, brushing dirt from her hands. โAfter your father passed, I didnโt think Iโd feel this way again. But with Aaronโฆ itโs like I have a partner. A real one. He listens. Heโs kind. He reads me poetry every night.โ
My stomach twisted. Poetry. That was our thing. Mine and Aaronโs.
โThatโs great, Mom,โ I forced a smile.
That evening, as I gathered my things to leave, Aaron walked me to the door. My mom stayed inside, humming while she made tea.
โI shouldnโt have said anything earlier,โ he whispered, standing close.
โNo, you shouldnโt have,โ I said quietly. โBut you did.โ
He looked at me, troubled. โI care about your mom. Deeply. Thisโฆ whatever we had or could have hadโฆ it never happened.โ
โI know.โ
โBut it could have,โ he added. And something in his eyes shattered my balance.
I stepped outside, cool air hitting my skin like a slap. He didnโt follow.
Over the next few weeks, I tried to avoid visits. When I did come over, I made excuses to leave early. Aaron was always there. Always perfectly attentive, affectionate toward my mom, always watching me from the corner of his eye.
Then came the night of her birthday.
She had a small party at the house, just a few friends, some cousins, and us. She wore a red dress, laughing like a girl. Aaron toasted to her health, his voice full of emotion. I couldnโt tell what was worseโhis sincerity, or the way I couldnโt stop wanting him.
After the guests left, we sat by the firepit outside, just the three of us. My mom went inside to get blankets. Aaron and I were alone in the flickering light.
โI can’t keep doing this,โ I said suddenly, voice shaking. โSeeing you with her. Knowing what you said to me.โ
โI meant every word,โ he murmured.
โThen why are you with her?โ
โBecause she came into my life when I was drowning,โ he said. โBecause I didnโt know you would everโฆโ
โI wouldnโt,โ I said. โNot then. But nowโฆโ
He looked at me with eyes full of storm. โDo you want me to leave her?โ
The question landed like thunder between us.
โNo,โ I whispered. โI want you to not want to leave her.โ
His jaw clenched. โThatโs not the same thing.โ
I stood, shaking. โSheโs my mother. She loves you.โ
โI know,โ he said, rising to stand with me. โAnd I love her. But not the way Iโโ
I held up my hand. โDonโt finish that sentence. Please.โ
We didnโt speak again that night. I left before dawn, heart hollow and confused.
I didnโt hear from them for two weeks. Then, one morning, my mom called me crying.
โHe left me,โ she sobbed. โNo warning. Just a letter.โ
My heart stopped. โA letter?โ
โHe said he wasnโt who I thought he was. That he was sorry. That he needed time.โ
I couldnโt believe it. He really left.
โDo you want me to come over?โ I asked gently.
โNo, sweetheart,โ she said through tears. โI just needed you to know.โ
I hung up and sat there, stunned. A few hours later, my phone buzzed with a message.
From Aaron: I had to. For both of you. Meet me, please. One last time. Our spot.
Our spot? He meant the little lake behind the university, where I used to study under the trees. The place where he once sat next to me and recited Yeats just because I looked like I needed cheering up.
I didnโt reply. I just went.
He was there, sitting on the bench, looking older than I remembered. Tired. But when he saw me, his face lit up.
โThank you for coming.โ
โI didnโt come for you,โ I said. โI came for answers.โ
โI couldnโt keep lying to her,โ he said. โOr to myself.โ
โYou broke her heart.โ
โI was breaking yours too,โ he said softly. โEvery time I looked at you and pretended you were just her daughter. Every time I ignored what I felt.โ
I closed my eyes. โThis is all wrong. Itโs a mess.โ
He reached out, but didnโt touch me. โIt doesnโt have to be.โ
โI canโt do this to her,โ I said. โEven if I wanted to. I couldnโt live with it.โ
He nodded slowly. โI know.โ
A long silence fell. The wind whispered through the trees. Somewhere, ducks splashed near the waterโs edge.
โI think we were meant to meet,โ he said at last. โBut not like this. Not now.โ
I looked at him, tears threatening. โSo what now?โ
โI disappear,โ he said. โFor real this time. Iโm going out of state. I got a job offer. Fresh start.โ
โAnd youโre not telling her where?โ
โNo. She deserves better than a man who broke her trust.โ
โAnd what about me?โ
He gave me a sad smile. โYouโll be fine. You were always stronger than you knew.โ
I hated him in that moment. And I loved him. And I let him go.
Three months later, my mom is smiling again. She started painting, joined a book club, even adopted a dog. She never mentions Aaron anymore. Maybe she doesnโt want to remember, or maybe sheโs finally healing.
As for me, I walk by the lake sometimes. I sit on the bench and breathe.
And though I donโt know where Aaron is, or what heโs doing, a part of me hopes he found peace.
But I know this much for sure: love doesnโt always come in the right shape, or at the right time. And sometimes, the bravest thing you can doโฆ is to walk away.




