I Take My Toddler On Long Hauls

Iโ€™ve been driving freight since I was nineteen, and when childcare got too expensive, I just strapped a car seat into the rig and brought Micah with me. Heโ€™s two nowโ€”sharp, stubborn, and already knows how to radio-check better than some new hires.

Itโ€™s not exactly conventional, but he loves the road. The noise, the movement, the steady rhythm of tires on asphalt. And honestly? Having him close helps with the loneliness.

We wear matching hi-vis jackets, share snacks, and sing the same off-key songs every stretch of highway. Most days blur togetherโ€”truck stops, delivery docks, refueling routines.

But last week, right outside Amarillo, something happened.

Weโ€™d stopped at a rest area just before sunset. I was checking the trailer straps while Micah sat on the curb, humming to himself and playing with his toy dump truck.

Then he looked up at meโ€”out of nowhereโ€”and said, โ€œMama, when is he coming back?โ€

I blinked. โ€œWho, baby?โ€

Micah pointed toward the cab. โ€œThe man who sits up front. He was here yesterday.โ€

I froze.

Because weโ€™d been alone. Weโ€™re always alone. I donโ€™t let anyone else in that truck. Ever.

I knelt beside him. โ€œWhat man, Micah?โ€

He didnโ€™t seem scared. Just matter-of-fact. โ€œThe one who gave me the paper. He said itโ€™s for you.โ€

I checked the cab. Nothing obvious. But later, when I opened the glove box to get my logbook, there it was.

A folded piece of paper.

Micahโ€™s name written across the front.

And insideโ€”

It was a sketch.

Done in pencil, simple but careful. It was of Micah and me, sitting together in the cab. Micah was holding his toy truck, and I had one hand on the wheel and the other reaching back to hand him an apple slice.

At the bottom was a note: โ€œKeep going. Heโ€™s proud of you.โ€

No name. No explanation. Just that.

I stared at it for a long while, heart pounding in my chest like a drum. I didnโ€™t know what to make of it. I didnโ€™t tell Micah. I didnโ€™t want to scare him.

Instead, I folded it up and put it in the visor, trying to shake the chill crawling up my spine. Maybe someone at the last stop had gotten too close. Maybe it was a weird joke. Maybe it meant nothing.

But the next morning, as we rolled out of Amarillo, I glanced at Micah in the mirror. He was watching the passenger seat again, like he expected someone to be there.

That night, I parked behind a diner in New Mexico. I didnโ€™t sleep much. I locked the cab from the inside and kept my arm across Micah as he snuggled close. Every sound outside made me flinch.

The drawing haunted meโ€”not because it was creepy, but because it felt familiar. I couldnโ€™t place it, but something about the handwriting stirred a memory I couldnโ€™t quite catch.

Three days later, we hit a patch of bad weather near Flagstaff. Hail the size of marbles, slick roads, poor visibility. I pulled into a truck stop early, figuring Iโ€™d wait it out.

While I fueled up, an older guy in a dusty flannel approached me. He looked like heโ€™d seen too many winters, face creased and eyes tired.

โ€œYou the one with the little boy?โ€ he asked.

I nodded, instantly alert.

He hesitated, then said, โ€œYou might want to talk to Dottie inside. She saw something strange yesterday. About your truck.โ€

My stomach dropped.

Inside the diner, Dottie turned out to be a petite woman with silver hair and the kind of stare that could shut up a room.

She took one look at me and said, โ€œYou the driver with the toddler?โ€

โ€œYes,โ€ I said, heart thudding. โ€œWhat did you see?โ€

Dottie wiped her hands on a towel and leaned closer. โ€œYesterday evening, I was closing up. Your rig was parked out back. I saw a man standing by the passenger side. Tall, beard, worn denim jacket. Looked like he was talking to someone inside.โ€

I stared. โ€œThere was no one there. We werenโ€™t even in the truck then.โ€

She raised a brow. โ€œWell, someone was. Because I walked out to ask if he needed something, and poofโ€”he was gone. Like he just stepped backward into the dark and disappeared.โ€

I swallowed hard. โ€œDid he leave anything?โ€

She paused. โ€œCome with me.โ€

Out back, near where Iโ€™d parked, she reached into a weathered mailbox near the side door. โ€œI found this shoved in here this morning.โ€

It was another folded paper.

This one had no name, but when I opened it, it showed another sketchโ€”Micah asleep on my chest, and me staring out the windshield, tear tracks on my cheeks.

The words below it read: โ€œYouโ€™re not alone. You never were.โ€

My knees went weak.

I thanked her, barely able to speak, and carried Micah back to the truck with shaking hands.

That night, I pulled off onto a quiet gravel road off the highway. I needed time to think. I needed space.

After Micah fell asleep, I sat in the driverโ€™s seat, clutching the drawings, staring out at the desert sky.

And finally, it clicked.

The handwriting. The lines of the sketch. The way Micah kept saying โ€œhe.โ€

It looked just like drawings my brother used to make when we were kids.

My older brother, Jordan. Heโ€™d been my protector growing up. He died in a wreck six years agoโ€”hit by a drunk driver on his way home from night shift.

He never got to meet Micah.

I started to cry, the kind that shakes your whole body. Because whether you believe in ghosts or not, something inside me knew. It was him.

Micah stirred in his sleep, murmured something I couldnโ€™t catch, then rolled over with a soft smile.

I didnโ€™t know how to explain it. Still donโ€™t.

But after that night, things started to change.

Not in any flashy, ghost-story kind of way. No flickering lights or cold spots. Justโ€ฆ signs.

Micah would say things like โ€œUncle Jo says slow down,โ€ right before Iโ€™d nearly miss a turn or hit a patch of black ice.

A toy I thought was lost would show up in the glove box.

And every now and then, another sketch would appearโ€”always when I needed it most.

One time, after a particularly hard delivery in Missouri when I was exhausted and broke and considering quitting altogether, I found one tucked inside Micahโ€™s coloring book.

It was of me, standing tall beside my rig, sun rising behind me. And the words: โ€œKeep driving. Youโ€™re building something beautiful.โ€

I kept them all. There are nine now. Each one like a whisper from somewhere beyond the noise and diesel and dust.

The last one came just a few days ago, outside Sacramento.

Weโ€™d pulled into a quiet rest stop. I was tired. Micah was cranky. I was questioning everything againโ€”whether this was the right life for him, whether I was doing more harm than good.

When I opened the fridge in the cab, taped to the milk carton, was another note.

No sketch this time. Just a sentence.

โ€œHeโ€™ll remember thisโ€”your strength, your love. Not the miles.โ€

And thatโ€™s when I decided to tell this story.

Because I think sometimes the road gives back. In strange, quiet ways.

Not everything can be explained. And maybe thatโ€™s okay.

All I know is, Iโ€™m still out here. Still driving. Still raising Micah the best way I know how.

And sometimes, when the night stretches long and the highway hums soft beneath us, I feel like Iโ€™m not doing it alone.

I feel like Jordanโ€™s still riding shotgun.

So if youโ€™ve ever lost someone but still feel them nearโ€”listen.

Look around.

You might just find a note in the glove box too.

And if you do, hold on to it.

Because love doesnโ€™t always leave. Sometimes, it just changes seats.

If this story touched you, share it. Maybe someone else out there needs a reminder that theyโ€™re not as alone as they think.

And if youโ€™ve ever gotten a signโ€”subtle or strangeโ€”Iโ€™d love to hear it.

Who knows? Maybe theyโ€™re all out there together, riding beside us.

One mile at a time.